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8526 US No. 8526
The last one was huge, let's start a fresh one.

You know what to do.
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>> US No. 8528
Scared shitless.
Had a very bad dream... I wouldn't call it a nightmare, because I have never had nightmares. Ever. And if I do, they usually don't phase me at all (and they usually only involve me dying in some way, not SO bad.)
But this dream, holy shit, I'm scared to move around my house in case that THING is actually alive and is going to eat me.

Captcha: Desu griati
Dammit my paranoia is not desu captcha
>> DE No. 8529
It´s not hot here. The weather is the whole day muggy and you see these big dark cloudes on the sky. Come one let it rain, so that it isn´t so sticky the whole night!
>> No. 8530
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I have a problem connecting too closely to the characters potrayed in games. I absolutely hate being renegade Shepard in Mass Effect and I get ridiculously nervous being part of the Dark Brotherhood in Oblivion just because I get too connected with the idea of being a hero. I get emotionally attached to each individual in the game and take account of their feelings even though they don't have any in reality. Wat do.
>> US No. 8531
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8531
Scared, unsafe and unsure. That's all I can say on how I feel.
>> US No. 8533
>Go shopping at Koles
>Finally find a sundress that fits perfectly
>Discover that it's maternity wear
>Cry

You know, I only ever really feel fat when I'm shopping. I don't think I'm all that huge. Hell, I think I'm curvy. I usually like my body. There's certainly bigger people out there. 180lbs isn't bad, right? And yet fashion designers feel the need to label me as XXL.

FUCK. EVERYTHING.
>> US No. 8534
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>>8533
Fuck fashion designers, make your own outfits.

Impossibly good mood right now, all costume drama wholly cleared up because I found a jacket I can work with. Not even my lack of HP premiere tickets can get me down right this moment.
>> US No. 8535
I'm surprised I haven't killed myself yet. The only thing that's kept me from doing so is fear of the punishment after death. But many people have much worse problems, why should I get to complain when those people are tough enough not to?
>> US No. 8536
>>8534
lol I'm trying. I'm looking up sewing classes and such.

ALL I WANT IS A PEACH COLORED SUNDRESS.
>> US No. 8537
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>>8535
>But many people have much worse problems, why should I get to complain when those people are tough enough not to?

I'mma throw a metaphor of sorts at you.

A car mechanic has two cars he needs to fix. One car is a complete wreck and won't run at all. It's missing many essential parts and is very obviously broken. The second car's problems aren't as obvious. It has all of the parts it needs to run, though they are getting rusty and need fine tuned. The car runs nicely in perfect weather on a straight road with no traffic, but breaks down when the temperature drops/rises, the terrain gets tough, or the traffic builds up.

In comparison to the first car, the second car looks great. Does that mean the mechanic shouldn't bother fixing it and tell the owner to suck it up and be grateful that the car runs at all? Of course not.

I know how you feel, Anon. I didn't seek treatment for my depression for years due to that kind of thinking. I had clothes, food, pets, and a plethora of frivolous technological gadgets while children starve to death elsewhere, how could I possibly complain or feel the least bit sad?!

But that's not a healthy, rational, or hell, practical way of handling your problems or emotions. You may think your troubles are petty or small, but what really matters is how they impact your life and affect you emotionally.

If something or someone is making you feel miserable or affecting your life/behavior in a negative way (say, you are so nervous around strangers that you simply avoid leaving your house, even when you need groceries), that is a very real, valid problem, and you have every right to complain. If your depression is caused by a chemical imbalance, that's obviously a real problem as well, one that you definitely should complain about so it can be corrected!

When I first began therapy, I was embarrassed and constantly apologized to my therapist for making such a huge deal out of what should have been minor issues in my life. She told me to stop trying to compare myself to other people - everyone will react to situations and problems in their own unique way - and that if something causes a major reaction out of me, it is a real and serious problem and should be treated as such.

Hopefully this wall of text makes at least a little bit of sense. I hope you feel better.
>> US No. 8538
there's a nest of baby birds above my bedroom window.
today i had to bury the two that fell out onto the pavement.
they were so tiny, and so light, and they still had big fluffs of down. it didn't feel real.

i'd only seen the poor things once before today, and i can't seem to stop mourning them
>> US No. 8539
>>8537
I love you and shall refer to this post next time I freak out.
>> US No. 8540
ahahaha so i got in a huge hours-long fight with my parents that started out as "mom dad i'm an adult and you need to respect my thoughts and opinions" and ended with me screaming, crying, and yelling "no mom and dad you are stifling me and ruining my life."

and now, my mom thinks i hate her, my dad thinks i'm an ungrateful bitch, and they hate my boyfriend who they previously liked. and to top it all off, they're sort of kicking me out of the house to prove that i can get my shit together without their help.

the /only/ bright side to this is that i have a flight to san francisco booked, so my boyfriend and my friends will be there to help me sort out all these weird "i'm trying to be an adult but fucking up terribly at it" feelings. but still. i managed to ruin everything in under 24 hours...
>> US No. 8544
Any advice on how to deal with unwanted romantic attention from an individual notorious for emotional abuse and suicidal tendencies, who also just so happens to be the sibling closest to your best bro?

Asdfjkl I am so afraid of him. How do I handle this situation without him hating me.
>> DE No. 8545
>>8544
Okay bfore i start to suggest some things, first of all: Are you 100% sure that he has such feeling for you and you may misinterpret his friendlinees as a bit more? Maybe he just wants to be your friedn, because he hasn´t much. It can happen.

Well, there are several things you could do.
The direct and adult way:
You could use a moment just between you two and try to tell your opinion about him, that you may like him as friend or nice company, but can´t imaginate a relationship with him. But than please don´t use something like: One day you will find someone or such things. No one wants to hear this than. Like ever. After it you should try not to see him too much. Not like completly avoid him, but just not every second day.

Than you should check if your behavior had maybe send the wrong signal. Like that you flirting with him or so, if you in reality just joked about it. If yes, than i would give you the advice, to be more careful around him and not to stir his hopes again.

I have a skypefriend who complained, that much girls think he is flirting with them if he just jokes around and he does this ever with his other girlfriends. To which i reply, yes, but you know your friends for years and they surely know you don´t mean it like that. But how you think it looks for a girl you barely know a month if you speak with her like that?

He says this is nonsense and ignores what i say.
I don´t need to say that much IRL drama resulted through misunderstandings of his behavior.

But this is just my advice and i´m not so good in this things. So, meh.
>> US No. 8546
>>8537
Thank you for writing that out, Anon... I wish I had something more grateful to say than just "thanks."
I do have social anxiety. I buy everything online now, I struggle with drive thrus, grocery stores etc; and it's why I didn't go to college and don't have a job. I don't think I'd do well with a therapist, but your therapist's advice is sound and I will remember it. Thank you.
>> US No. 8550
>make a new friend
>they talk to you a lot and you get along really well
>you become very attracted to this friend
>this friend is seeing someone, but there is also evidence they might be interested in you

I am confused.
>> US No. 8551
>>8550
This happened to me. Turns out this guy was engaged. Dude, wat?
>> US No. 8554
>>8550
Story of acquiring my current boyfriend. Don't rule it out, because said friend's relationship might be going terribly south and about to end anyway. That said, don't get your hopes up, just play it by ear. And don't let them cheat, whether or not they want to.
>> CA No. 8555
Why is the every time I find a girl I really like talking to, I fall fast and hard for her?
I just want a really good female friend that I can talk to about anything. Someone to share my feelings and thoughts with who will take them all nonjudgmentally and for me to do the same to her. Apparently that's too much to ask, since I now have a big cluster of feelings I can't ever tell her about.
It's not the worst thing to happen, but it's still frustrating. I just don't wanna fuck up our friendship, because even platonically she's a great gal and I she's one of my favourite people to talk to and spend time with...
>> US No. 8556
>>8555
You could always be friends with me. I seem to have a lot of friends, but none of them ever have romantic feelings for me.
>> US No. 8558
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Gee Dad, why do you get pissed when hearing my honest opinion to something I find utterly boring and unrelated to me? It's not like this hasn't happened before, showing me something stupid and giving the weak-ass excuse that "it's educational". Stop trying to shove your interests in my face when you fucking know that I won't give a shit you needy moron. Plus, learn to lock the goddamn door yourself when leaving for work it's not like you don't have a free hand.
>> US No. 8560
>>8555
I do the same thing. And I make a lot of jokes about relationships and innuendo with everyone I'm friends with, so I exist in a constant circle of no one involved being sure who else is or is not friendzoning who and it's fucking balls
>> CA No. 8561
I had, THE most intense dream last night.
It was sexual. It seemed to take hours.
The person seducing me was fictitious (which is honestly even better in some cases, really), but WOW.
When I woke up, my body had reacted physically. I mean. Has anyone else experienced that before?
And gosh, I was just getting to the good stuff. I'd like a repeat but I haven't tried lucid dreaming.

In other, more life-relevant news, I'm going to visit my closest friend in Minnesota on Monday. Monday! I have a bunch to do before then, and I'm doing it all by myself. Ohh, I'm so nervous I'm going to forget something that I won't be able to go back for or something that makes me miss my flight! I've never flown alone before.

Passport, tickets... am I missing anything else MAJOR?
>> US No. 8562
>>8561
My checklist would be (and assemble all these things the night before the flight):
Passport
Tickets
Secondary form of ID if you have one, just to be safe
Sufficient clothes/underwear/etc packed for the trip
A plan to get yourself toiletries after the flight because it's really just not worth trying to take toiletries on planes in the US anymore, at all (I usually just stop at a store and get travel-size ones at my destination rather than even bringing the travel-sized ones on the plane with me)
Any prescription medications you're on, with a copy of the prescription if possible
Make sure all knives/scissors/nail clippers/etc are removed from your pockets and your luggage
Wear shoes that are easy to put on and take off
Don't wear any big metal belt buckles if you're even inclined to do that in the first place, they can cause a hold-up in the security line if the person working the scanner is stupid
If you're bringing a laptop have it in a case you can easily remove it from; electronic devices have to go through the X-ray machine separately at lots of airports
Something to read or otherwise entertain yourself with while waiting at airports/on planes
A little cash in case you end up needing it for something (although I think all airlines take credit cards these days, I'm a big proponent of playing it safe so I don't have to worry about being suddenly stuck with a baggage fee, or being really hungry and having to buy a meal on a flight where it's not included, or something)

Plan to arrive at the airport an hour before your flight is scheduled to take off.

And have fun! I love flying. My favourite part is take-off - the way the engines get louder and higher-pitched as the plane goes faster feels like the plane is getting excited about leaving the ground.
>> CA No. 8563
>>8562
Thanks so much, your list is really helpful. I probably would have forgotten about taking my nail-clippers out.
I think my favourite part is actually once you get stabilized in the air - I've had a couple of experiences with turbulence taking off so severe people were swearing and looking panicked. I kind of agreed with them. Your reason is really awesome, though, I'll keep that in mind.
>> CA No. 8564
OH MY GOD. So fucking mortified. I was roleplaying with an RP friend, and talking with my RL pure-as-snow friend on the other window.

I misclicked. Copy and pasted in the wrong window. Sent her this:
[quote]Spy whimpered when the Engineer gripped his head tightly. He turned his head back to the cock, and used his tongue on it as best he could. Over and over, that pink tip lapped at the head, and stroked along the shaft. Eventually, the Spy decided he had enough oxygen, and tried to take the Engineer in his mouth again. [/quote]

OH GODDDDD. I broke her brain. She said it was alright, and she still loved me and wouldn't tell my mom and all that jazz, but oh god, my face is still red as a beet.
>> DE No. 8566
>>8564

If you could see me you would see me shocked. I know how it is to life somekind of "double live". Everyone in my family and by my IRL friends thinks i´m some kind of prude i believe, because i don´t like to talk about this stuff. (Okay seriously who wants to talk about gay sex with his mom or grandma? Or about sex in generell. No brain stop! Don´t let the picture come in! Bad brain! Bad brain!)
So i would somehow kind of be embarrased if they would ever find out.
It already felt awefull as some of my inet friends found out of one internet profil of mine and saw what i all saved up in the fav list. The shame.

Anyway it just occured to me that if i can´t find the TF2chan Steamgroup, maybe the Steamgroup can find me?

A link to my profil http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198011313267

(PS: If you can finish this rp will you post the endresult here? I believe for some on this site was that the most important message than that i linked my steamprofil here.)
>> US No. 8568
>>8564
Once, I tried to print out some adult fanfic for *cough* "future reference", but my printer was out of ink. Well, apparently, my printer remembers past tasks and continues them when you put in new ink.

Long story short, my dad delivered the pages to me and I know how you feel.
>> GB No. 8570
>>8566
Karnickel, there's a link to the Circlejerk steam chatroom in the bar on the left, all the way at the bottom. Come in some time, we don't bite. much.
>> US No. 8575
>Harry Potter
>Mind blown
>Spend an hour crying
>Farewell to my childhood

All's well that ends well, as it were.

God, am I glad they kept Molly Weasley's "Not my daugher, you bitch!" line in the movie.
>> CA No. 8576
>>8564
I feel partially responsible for this and have to admit I fell off my chair laughing.
>> CA No. 8577
>>8576
You ass.
<3

I've no one but myself to blame, really. I need to double check who I'm talking to before I copy and paste graphic tf2 rape/sex roleplays.
>> US No. 8578
>vanish for a week
>nobody notices

Cool so this is what it's like being dead.
>> CA No. 8579
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>>8575
I feel the same. Midnight showing and 2 hour wait was totally worth it. Everyone was such a badass, especially Neville and McGonagall.

And man, what a way to end off 10 years of movies and 14 years of books.
>> US No. 8580
>>8564
I've commented to the wrong people with the wrong things before, too. It's hard being in two chats at the same time. I sometimes do that when I'm tired or distracted by something else on my mind. Perhaps you were tired or distracted too?

Feelings: Yesterday I was checking my Deviant Art messages, and there was a reply to one of my old comments from when I was a crazy anime fangirl. I died a little inside. Why can't Deviant Art enable us to delete our own fucking comments? I want that part of me to be erased from existence and never have to bump into it again.
>> US No. 8581
I'm going on a trip for two weeks and I know no one will be waiting for me to get back.
I feel miserable about it but there's nothing I can do, I can't force people to like me or include me in their groups. I wish I wasn't this dependent. All that's kept me going is my spirituality, but even that seems to drive people away.
>> BR No. 8586
My older dog died on my hands.
>> DE No. 8589
>>8580

But the sins of the past are never forgotten and will hauuunt you.

...

Wait i though you can delete your comments in da? Isn´t there a option.
man i need to write my stuff here for my jobhunt, but i so don´t want to.
But i can if i want, just waiting for a friend to come one maybe he can help.
>> US No. 8590
>>8579
I think this movie was definitely the best. "I've always wanted to use that spell~" And as much as I didn't like the epilogue while reading the book, it was better in the movie. I could rant about this for hours, it was so good.
>> US No. 8594
Not interested in seeing the HP movie because I have 500 problems with the way the books end, and the movie didn't change the way it ends, so...

Pooh movie made me feel all warm and cuddly, though. And we were in a theatre of a ton of little kids, all well-behaved (and a few couples on dates). As an animation major and lifelong fan of Disney/Pooh (including the books), I may be biased, though.
>> US No. 8599
And now my Benadryl starts to kick in. 'Scuse me whilst I be loopy until it knocks me out.
>> CA No. 8600
Mom, dad, me, and best friend go out for dinner before we go see Cirque Du Soleil. Dessert comes. It's lava cake, with ice cream, whip cream, and a cherry. We're all sharing, and I get the cherry, because no one else likes them.
My friend makes a comment about someone she once saw tie a cherry stem into a knot with their tongue.
My mom says that sounds neat. I say I think I could do it. Mom and friend disagree. Dad's too busy eating cake to care.
Eat the cherry. Pop stem in my mouth, and after a little big of wiggling it around between my teeth and my tongue, and looking ridiculous, I pull it out, and voila. Cherry Stem knot.
We could not stop laughing.

BOW BEFORE ME! FOR I AM THE CHERRY STEM GOD.

Felt ridiculously good about myself the rest of the night.
>> US No. 8601
I have been trying to decide whether to go to Vegas with my parents or spend an extra two weeks on my ships this summer.

Then I found out that my parents are planning to go to see Phantom of the Opera in Vegas. In a theater modeled like the opera-house from the movie.

My decision has been made.
>> US No. 8604
>Mother tells me to be able to accept responsibility
>OH HO, HYPOCRISY
>Next day, watching TV
>Asks me to rewind something
>Tell her to wait a sec, I'm watching this interesting commercial
>'YOU'RE SUCH A SELFISH BITCH'
>'Wha...'
>'JUST SHUT UP, SERIOUSLY. I JUST LOVE BEING TREATED LIKE SHIT.'
> Rewind it, say nothing and walk upstairs, like always, because I don't fight with my mom
>Hour later, tries to get in my good graces again
>Unable to apologize OR ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY, just smiles and makes shitty jokes

I fucking hate her so much sometimes. Don't take out you're frustration with my shitbag sister on me. I haven't done anything but try to please you, you fat bitch.
>> US No. 8605
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>That moment where you realize your feelings are reciprocated.
>> DE No. 8607
>>8578
>>8586

If I could hug you guys right now, you would get the biggest hugs known to man.
>> US No. 8608
Since I'm the only one in the family who can't get a job during the summer, I'm the one who has to watch my grandma during the day because she has dementia and can't take care of herself and as much as I love her and understand her condition, my patience is seriously being tested with being asked the same questions every day and dealing with her passive-aggressive moments, and I can't just up and leave the house because she can't be alone, I don't have a car, my bike is in storage near my college which is in a completely different part of the country, my sister's bike needs new tires, and it's about 100 degrees outside so walking is out of the question, and there's not many places to go to within walking distance anyway, and I'm running out of things to do at home, I've got artist's block so I can't work on any drawings or animations to pass the time, I can't play any online games until after my grandma goes to bed because I have to be on alert during the day, I've played too much of my other games, and not even last Thursday's outing to the Harry Potter premiere makes me feel better because it just makes me want to leave the house again even more and AGGHH I just want it to be mid-August so I can go back to school, get my bike back, go back to work on campus, go anywhere and do anything I want in my spare time, have more shit to do, and possibly meet recruiters so I can get a summer internship so this doesn't happen again next summer.

tl;dr — I'm getting cabin fever from taking care of my grandma, and I'm probably a spoiled brat for complaining about it.
>> CA No. 8609
Okay, so my cousin's husband's father has been dealing with cancer for years. He's in a huge amount of pain, and it's a miracle (really, a curse) that he's survived this long. They really don't think he's going to live for much longer (like, dead within days, they mean), and he's in the hospital. My mom just got a call from her sister (my cousin's mother), who's keeping us up-to-date with everything. Apparently he's been vomiting an obscene amount the past couple days, and now his bowel is perforated, and (warning, very gross) he's vomiting feces. .

Just. God. There is no God. This is like the worst fucking awful thing someone can go through. This is why I'm an agnostic. If God were really merciful and loving, he wouldn't put anyone through this kind of thing when they were a good person their whole life. It's just not fair.

Everybody's honestly praying he goes soon, because he's in so much pain. Poor guy can't even walk anymore. This is no life for someone to live.

I'm saddened by this. I really am.
>> US No. 8611
>>8589
No you can't. The most you can do is hide them, but you can't do anything with comments you made on other people's stuff or pages. Shit sucks :(
>> US No. 8612
I can't tell if my upset stomach is from the pizza or the looming anxiety of the fact that I may very well be off to the military within the coming months. It's not exactly what I thought I'd be doing with my life but I'm kinda back against a wall here since no one wants to pay me to draw. The benefits seem too good to pass up, housing, education, health insurance, travel... all if I can just give my life to Uncle Sam without question. Right now I'm doing a lot of questioning. I want to be sure I'm okay with this trade off While all my military family members have survived and led alright lives afterward, it doesn't really put me at ease much...
>> PL No. 8619
FFS. I'm a very patient and tolerant person, but damn me, I can't stand living here. It could be worse, I know that, but even if we have a good financial and health (in general) situation, we only need one small thing to piss everyone off to the point of shouting sometimes (my father for example won't change some of his irritating habits, and that pisses me and mom off and mom takes it out on me sometimes with unrequired shouting). And I acknowledge my issues, but I don't have this problem with anyone else (friends and acquaintees), just my folks. And I can't do anything about it, even if I have options - my sister is living in my possible future apartment for now and the other one where she was living previously is currently rented for at least one more year.

I'm anxious as it is, I don't need that crap.
>> US No. 8621
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>All three dogs sleeping by my feet
>Munching on snacks my brother bought me
>MST3K on the TV
>Playing Worms with my bros
>Listening to them argue in-call about gravity being OP
>Laughing every five seconds

This is where I belong, guys.
Sounds cheesy as fuck I know, but I've never felt like, so part of something. This is the part of the puzzle where I fit in and where I'm needed. I know it sounds ridiculous. Hell, I feel pretty dumb for having had the biggest grin on my face when this dawned on me, but still. It felt awesome.
>image related - it's been my face all night.
>> AU No. 8622
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READY YOUR BREAKFAST AND EAT HEARTY, MEN, WE SAIL AT DAWN

TO THE NEW WORLD, TO GLORY
>> US No. 8623
>>8609
I'm so sorry to hear this. No one should have to go through that.
If it makes you feel any better, a merciful, loving God wouldn't want us to suffer. He'd want us to be with him instead of being on this planet where everyone suffers and dies.
I could elaborate but I doubt anyone wants to hear that. So I'll keep you and him in my thoughts.
>> DE No. 8626
So what happened at the morning by me? Well, my mom wanted to visit us so this was my morning
> Standing up
> I am so not a morning person
> Make myself ready to drive to the train for work
> Need to hurry because, someone wants to go with me until the backery
> Tear one of my favourite clothes in the hurry. Well.
> Than i should search for the brochure i made. Need to hurry again, found it quickly thank god.
> Standing by my side looking at me the whole time while i´m dressing myself. The occassional sighs of annoyance are my background tune
> I am Zen.
> Break the zipper of my new backpack. Which makes him garbage. Nice two thing in this morning broken. Need to put all my things in my other one.
> I am still Zen
> Okay i am ready... "Do you have your purse?"
Well. Go through backpack again just to be sure. "You should know that you put it in there!"
> Losing patience becoming loud. I am not Zen anymore.
> I went to far. I should jsut have shut up and swallow it.
> running after telling i am sorry
> feel bad the whole day. Don´t eat my lunch, because i am not hungry
> Coming back home
> Everything i expected what will happen if my mom visits happened

I wasn´t there but what i heard than makes me a bit more than angry. I´m a selffish person, because the only real reason why i don´t want to get a apartment with my brother is: I don´t want to live with him. Just this. Mom, please i love you, but don´t you see you are staring to offend the person who love you with your behaviour? I am your daughter and please don´t make me to stand up for once and to say straight in your face all things we think but don´t tell you. Because i´m just your daughter. I know you wouldn´t take me seriously and would be rather hurt than helped than.

And you make me already the damn messenger between two fronts.
>> GB No. 8628
I can't tell her I'm slowly starting to fall for her. I want to, but I'm simply not that guy. I hate that guy. She has someone, even if it is kinda apparent that it is wrong for them. Im a emotional wreck right now, even if I don't show it, and I don't want to put any of that strain on anyone else. But shes one of the few women I know that I can trust right now, because despite shit repeating itself time and time again, she some how makes me want to take that chance.

But Im not that guy.
>> US No. 8631
My parents are very controlling and don't allow me to go out often, and the constant belittlement them and my siblings give me over minute things makes me not want to attempt talking to people offline. When I do, my parents give me every excuse not to be able to see them. Every time they want to see me, I/my parents conveniently have to go somewhere, or my mother calls them a stalker for calling more than once. I almost was in a relationship, and that's part of why it ended. We could never see each other. I have tried many times pointing out what I'd like to see fixed, and I get yelled at and threatened for bringing it up.

My online friends are all I have. And I've been treating them really shitty as of late, being paranoid and clingy. I love them so much, they're all I have in the world, but that's just it: They're all I have, ever, and the slightest lack of self-confidence brings me down, I know they're sick of hearing about that. I don't want pity anymore, I just need advice on how to fix it.
>> No. 8632
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>Realize that I only care about people if they are 'useful' or if I like them.
My face.
>> US No. 8637
>nine days to go
>costume to finish
>massive wig to style

I don't like cutting it close, but right about now is when my adrenaline starts to kick in.

Otakon: Come at me, bro!
>> US No. 8640
omgomgomgaaaaaaaah.

Hydra will be flying in in about an hour! And then the most awesome Comic-Con weekend will begin!
>> CA No. 8643
>>8623
Thanks. Sadly, he passed away early this morning. His wife was with him, and their minister, and he didn't suffer too much. He just sort of...stopped breathing, I guess.

His suffering's over now, and that's a blessing. The cancer can't hurt him anymore.
>> US No. 8650
Been a really busy week, with more to come. I'm both excited and kind of frazzled.

Saturday was my last day with my girlfriend before she goes home to Canada. She came down to the beach for a couple of hours, and then I took her back to where she's staying in LA. Yeah... "Carmageddon"? There was no one on the road. A trip that would usually take me an hour and a half took me 45 minutes. It was awesome.

So I met her family (who are all incredibly sweet), we got sushi and shared a caramel apple, watched The Hangover, and said our tearful goodbyes. It was sad, but I feel really good about it. We'll see each other every few months, and we've got a good understanding of each other. And if I want to think far ahead, we'll end up going to school in the same area in a year or so.

Sunday was my friend's birthday party, which was eh. I'm not crazy about the majority of the people that were there, not to mention she cannot feed people to save her life. There were four people at the party that couldn't eat wheat, and she served chips containing wheat and pasta for dinner, so about half of the party went hungry. I know it's difficult to feed wheat intolerant people but it's kinda shitty to eat in front of hungry people that you invited over and were unable to provide any kind of refreshments for despite having promised them.

Monday was ALL of the shopping for my party, which was intense, but it was good to get it all done! Lots of food for lots of awesome people. Did all of the prep today, and people are coming over early tomorrow to help me set up. All of my excite.

Thursday is cheap sushi with some of my bros. My dad is giving me money for because he knows I'm strapped for cash and that I really want to go. He's even putting gas in the car for me. I do have to drop off a job application, though.

Friday I send off my girl's birthday package. Sending her a quilt I made, a letter, a drawing, a few things that she left in my car, and a big posterboard signed and drawn on by all of her friends here in California. Hopefully it gets there in time!

Saturday is a barbecue with other bros, and then hopefully I'll have some time off for a while. Dis been a crazy ass week.
>> No. 8651
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8651
So finally, months after I turn eighteen, do my parents decide that I can learn to drive (actually driving wasn't the issue, the cost of insurance and stuff was with the crappy job my dad used to have).

Now that the in-class portion is done, I went out on my first drive. It was the most horrifying thing I'd ever done, especially since I never even touched a steering wheel. At the same time, I'm proud of myself for picking up on all of the basics quickly enough that I was allowed to go from a parking lot into a residential neighborhood.

Guys. Guys. I stopped at a stoplight perfectly. I might cry, I am so happy!
>> AU No. 8652
>>8651
Well done man! I'm going on 19 (my birthday is next week actually) and I'm still on my learner license. I still get bad nerves when I get into that driver's seat, although by the time the car pulls away from the driveway, I'm happily enthusiastic.
Which reminds me... I need more lessons.
>> No. 8654
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8654
Our storage locker was robbed again and we lost half our stuff, but that's not the worst part.

We can't find the tree. This is the Christmas tree my Dad has had ever since HE'D BEEN BORN. OVER 50 YEARS AGO. The one he kept and taken care of despite the many moves during his childhood. Something that has incredible emotional and sentimental value to him. I'm hoping, even fucking PRAYING that we find this damn tree in the chaos, since the robbers broke into other units and stuff got mixed up. Because no matter how much I may not like my Dad, if those thieving cumstains have taken taken that tree I will rain upon them a god-like fury that has not been seen since the Old Testament and whatever death they pray for it will not come to ease their pain.
>> GB No. 8656
>>8654
What the hell kind of asshole steals a fucking Christmas tree.

Hope you find it. And/or them. :T
>> US No. 8659
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>>8656
>> US No. 8661
I know it's not for another two months, but my younger sister is moving to South Dakota and it's just barely hitting me. She's my best friend and we'll have practically the whole fucking country between us. I don't want her to go, but I know she has her own life and I don't want to say anything to make her feel bad. I feel like complete shit.
>> US No. 8668
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check them post flags
>> CA No. 8670
My parents bother me. I'm 22, but I still live at home, because it's impossible to find a job is this fucking city unless you're going back to school in the fall. In order to go back to school, I need to get a job to earn money to go back to school.
But I digress.
Last night, I was roleplaying till 4 AM. The phone rang around then, from the alarm company, telling my dad the alarm had been triggered at the building he owns in the industrial park (turned out to just be an animal). And then my parents realized I wasn't in bed yet, so NAG NAG NAG.

I am a fucking adult. I can drink, drive (though not both at the same time, obviously), buy porn, and YES! STAY UP TILL FOUR IN THE MORNING IF I WISH.
I have no job. Why would I need to get up before noon anyway?
>> US No. 8675
I feel like a failure.

What the fuck else is new.
>> US No. 8676
>that feel when I might be genderqueer

Strange.
>> CA No. 8679
>>8670
It's kind of creepy how in sync we are mang. I got yelled at for being up so late as well.
>> CA No. 8681
>>8679
It really is. I can't count the number of times my mom's called downstairs to say dinner's ready, and you'll type 'BRB Dinner' like, ten seconds after. And then taking a day off from RP because we were both travelling on the same fucking day.

I'm scared. Hold me.
>> DE No. 8685
In the last two days i went again through a emotional down and panic about my future. I didn´t let it on the surface. So as i stood up to drive to work, which i don´t like and slowly feel that i´m becoming bonkers there, i wasn´t so happy. Still as i finally came home and needed to have again these talks about what i want to do with my life a throughout feeling of everything will become better wasn´t there.
As suddendly in the middle of my dinner...
"Huh, seems like someone is painting his room completly naked."

I don´t know if this a comfort of a higher up for the problems which might come on to me or if this is a sign, that everything will be good.
>> AU No. 8686
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8686
That awkward moment when you share a spark with a certain person, and you like them and you're pretty sure they like you back, then after a while of silence you don't know if that liking-ness still stands and you're afraid to ask because you don't want everything to suddenly get even more awkward than it is right now.
>> CA No. 8687
>>8681
Gladly.

As for feelin's atm, I'm really really hoping it doesn't get as hot as it's supposed to. Thursday's supposed to get up to 50 C with the humidity. That's around 120 F, btw. Luckily my house has two air conditioners, even though it's barely large enough to warrant one. With both of them on and the curtains drawn, I live in a meat freezer. It's awesome.
I feel pretty sorry for any other people living in central Ontario who have to bear this without AC, though. You are more manly than I.
>> US No. 8692
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>>8661
I just found out that because the college her boyfriend is going to starts next month, they're leaving then. My heart is breaking.
>> US No. 8694
My pug... her eyes. They... got infected, and... and... she's gonna have to be blind for a little while. I'm so worried, I love that little lardass. Well, she's not so fat anymore, she's no longer my little Heavy Weapons Pug, because she hasn't had anything to eat in a few days...
Did I mention I'm basiclly I'm my own in taking care of her? My mother's taking care of the meds but that's only like once a day, and my brother is just... playing on the computer. So I'll have to walk her everywhere and I mean everywhere, her eyes will be sewn shut.
But I'll do it. Because I love my pug. <3
I hope she's gonna be okay... the vet said they will most likely be able to save her sight...
>> US No. 8698
A little annoyed and tired, but relieved and proud of self. Randomly woke up, decided to check the Chan, and, WHOA, ANIMAL PORN EVERYWHERE. Reported what I could find, then just sat feeling like I'm NOT useless for once. Hellz yeah.
>> CA No. 8700
I suffer from some pretty irritating phobias (dogs, sharp objects, and new social situations), and anytime I have to do something that involves facing one of them, and I end up not being able to do it, because I'm too scared, my mom tells me to 'get over it'.

If it were that fucking easy to conquer, mom, they wouldn't be phobias.
UUUUUGH. I wish she'd just TRY to understand, ya know? I'd be happy to mow the lawn, but there's a pitbull standing in our ditch. It's not gonna happen.
>> US No. 8702
>>8698
I was wondering why the chan was all locked up when I logged on yesterday.

My phone stopped working in April.
>two nights ago, lying in bed
>"ugh, need to call Virgin Mobile tomorrow morning, so I have a phone before Otakon"
>for shits and giggles, pull out broken phone and charger, plug it in
>"phone charging" screen
At this point, I'm thinking "You've got to be shitting me" and go to sleep.
>wake up
>phone fully charged and operational, just needs minutes

wtf. I'm glad I have my phone back, but seriously?
>> DE No. 8704
> Watching TV News
> It rains pretty hard all over germany
> Show as example the city (which is small) where my mom and a friend of me lives
> Already one death case

I am shocked and worried.
And yeah i heard there in the USA is a strong heatwave going on.

And now i just got the Mail in which i requested for help regarding my letter of application. It was disappointing, because there was just some google links in there.

And i will never get a job for what i learned the last three years, and i feel like a failure and WHY THE FUCK DOES NO ONE IN MY FAMILY SAY I WILL FIND SOMETHING? Where are the encouragig words i heard the last years, if i REALLY need them? Why is all of the sudden everyone gloomy here if i talk about my search for work?

It angers me and disappoint me. Normaly my family was 100% behind me and now it´s like i lost everything.

Yeah i know, i should grow up. But World you could be nicer.
>> CA No. 8706
Why is it so fucking hot today? It's past 40C with humidity and even in my house I feel like I'm going to die. I was even asked to sub for a friend's Ultilamte team this evening, but I don't think I can drag myself out it this god awful weather without passing out. This is what I get for not hydrating enough.
>> US No. 8719
I think I'm an alcoholic.
>> GB No. 8721
So I got a copy of Twilight from a charity store, a highlighter out of my cupboard and I'm going through correcting all the mistakes and trying to count the amount of hyphens she uses.

This is the most boring drivel I've ever read.
>> US No. 8722
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>That bittersweet moment when you realize all of your friends have a special somebody in their lives.

I'm ecstatic for them and everything, but it still kind of sucks.
They're off being happy with each other and here I am in the far right corner letting my own jealousy sour my mood.

Is it a stupid thing to be upset over? Yes.
Am I stupid for letting this get to me? Yes.
Aren't there at least 10 more important things I should be concerned about? Yes.

But like that stops me from whining about it.
>> PL No. 8723
I have to go to the hospital for a minor surgery this Wednesday. I really don't know what to expect, since I'll have to stay for three days after that, and the only experience I've got from the public hospital is from '94 and it's not something to look forward to.
I just want to fix as much as I can when it comes to health this summer, but why it has to be accompanied with so much anxiety?
>> US No. 8725
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Just when I think everything is in order for Otakon, a friend messages me asking if we have room in our hotel. I say sure, the more the merrier.

She then messages me back saying she'll have a $150 check for the table. EXCUSE ME, WHAT FUCKING TABLE, I DON'T HAVE AN EXTRA ART TABLE FOR YOU BITCH

oh my god can I go to one goddamn convention without this kind of asshattery happening, I fucking hate people
>> DE No. 8726
>>8723

Because it´s still surgery. Such things are never easy or funny. Anxiety is normal, but don´t let yourself stress to much about it.
Just try to trust the personal there.
Still i wish you good luck for it and that afterwards you are fast back in the track.
>> GB No. 8727
I think I just fell out with a friend, but she doesn't quite realise it yet. I dunno, I just realised that she just never seems to want to talk any more, and its always me askin how she is and how her day has been, and it kinda pisses me off that she never asks me anything or starts a conversation, only seems to use me to fill her games and what not.
>> CA No. 8730
Best friend and I are getting super distant and I don't fucking like it. Like ever since she's left for college we've been drifting apart and I don't know how to fix it. :T Like I try to talk to her and pay attention to her more and more but she's got her own friends at school and I mean they spend hours and hours together. How can I compete with that? They comfort her when she's sad and get to be in her life day by day. I talk to her for an hour a day if I'm lucky and see her every three months while the school year is active. I know things will be better this year because I don't have school so I have the time to visit her, but what if she likes hanging out with her friends from school better than hanging out with me? They centainly are more in the loop with her life like I wish I could be... and I just don't want to lose her. I barely remember a time when she wasn't my best friend and it hurts to think about a time when we no longer might be.
Sometimes I wonder why I ever bother making friends and getting attached to people in the first place.
>> DE No. 8732
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Good: Having so much fun with visitors, doing nice stuff together.
Bad: Not having time for online friends.

Aw.
>> NO No. 8735
  Well, today sure was a fun day.

I live in Oslo and I've been texting people all day, hearing if they've been alright. Some of them even were close enough to hear or even feel the explosion.

http://www.cnn.com/2011/WORLD/europe/07/22/norway.explosion/index.html?hpt=hp_t1
For those of you who don't know.
>> US No. 8739
>>8725
I know how you feel, one of my roomies just messaged me today and says "Do we still have room for my two cousins?" No, we don't. Ten person cap. We have ten people in the facebook group. Plus a baby, crib cuts down on sleeping space.

>>8735
I hope you and your loved ones are OK, anon. Stuff's gonna be crazy for you for a while, so good luck with it. Been there, done that, Flight 93 went down in my area.
>> US No. 8747
Can't go to Otakon. Gotta go to SIGGRAPH to hang out with my Valve buddy. This is going to destroy my wallet, but it'll be totally worth it.
>> AU No. 8748
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8748
It's my biiiiirthdaaaaay
>> CA No. 8750
The wheel in my mouse keep sticking, and it drives me NUTS. AHHHHHH.
>> No. 8751
>>8748
HAPPY BIRFDAAAY
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