>>11923
Sounds alot like my stepdad,anon. People like that try to control other people's lives because they can't control their own. Or at least,In my stepdad's case.

>>11925
No, a Katamari with a bird in the center.
JOIN THE KATAMARI,SCOOT.

I spent the entirety of today too tired to care; it has been a cheerily apathetic day! That having been said, I've finally started drawing again, and here's to hoping that everyone has a better day than I have had.

I'm pissed. Anthony needs to shut his God damn mouth and LISTEN when I'm trying to help my girlfriend with her computer.

"Herp-a-derp, I'm not gonna uninstall the three other antivirus programs you have because they work fine together!"

No, SHITFACE, certain types will attack each other because they make changes to the computer that aren't authorized by the other programs. Shit doesn't work that way. How about you take it from someone who has formal training with Hewlett-Packard and Dell.

Seriously, leave the computer shit to me and go back to eating Cheetos and jerking off. You're not harming anything that way.

>>11930
>"Herp-a-derp, I'm not gonna uninstall the three other antivirus programs you have because they work fine together!"
You are a saint for not strangling him.
Also way to go self. forget to eat all day then wonder why you are typing like "Has anyone really been far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like?" and/or trying to summon the elder gods with keyboard.

>>11931
DANKE, someone gets it.

Sorry you aren't feeling well.

>>11925
>>11928
>>11921
>>11915

>>11920
OH MY GOD very berry sundaes are so good that they are WORTH the lactose-intolerant episode of vomiting that follows. They even taste good coming up.

But I don't dip the breadsticks. They're delicious as they are.

Feelings: Bottom right wisdom is finally starting to break through. So now I'll have that one, and one on the top left. I'll be assymmetrical, and it will bother me. Also, this hurts like fuck. Aren't these stupid things supposed to come in when you're like 18? Five years have passed and I still don't even fully have one.
I suppose it's to be expected. My twelve-year-old molars didn't come in till I was 16.

>>11932
haha,no problem. I actually /feel/ fine though? Normally I'd be shaky when I don't eat and my blood sugar drops and/or have panic attacks, but it didn't happen today,which is weird.

Hey guys.

Let's play a riddle game.

What has a thumb and just got laid off at work?

>>11940

That's so...bad. I mean, if ya liked your job/needed the money, of course.

What are you going to do now?
It remembers me that my poor bfriend is on the same situation: no job, no money. And he keeps saying that he wants to give gifts to me, wants to help me, to make me feel better but...i don't need that stuff. I need him by my side, just it.


My current mental state: holy shit, these days were delicious, in terms of fanfic stuff! Discovery was updated, and it was so delicious, with so much pain everywhere...and i just read the update of "An apple a day", i fuckin' love the distorted dynamic between Scout, Medic and Heavy, oh god, i fuckin' need more. And there's this new fanfic in Ff.net called "Two Worlds" that is a bit strange at first (and if ya don't read it till the end, you may think there's a lot of mistakes in it, hehe), but holy fuck who cares? There's blood, pain, rape and lots and fuckin' lots of Scout mental+physical abuse and it's twisted and fucked up the way i like. To end it all, there were the updates of "Blowing Off Steam" and the perfection of all perfections, "It gets me places" (must be somethin' sweet, "normal" and fluff inside my list of preferences, just to vary things a little bit every now and then).

I am in heaven, covered on blood and cum of fictional characters. I'm H.A.P.P.Y.



(oh ...sorry about the bad english)

>>11941

>>11942

Hehe.
Sowiie, guess i got too excited.

Just ignore me.

Oh, anyway, too bad i can't praise the author of "Two Worlds". She disabled anon comments...probably due to the amount of butthurted girls trolling around ff.net. Too bad.

(UNDERAGE: 15 YEARS OLD ON A PORN SITE, FOUND YOUR TUMBLR)

i'm starting to get quite a lot of insight on how other people view me

i dont think I like what i'm seeing

>>11944

? Why? What are you seeing that you don't like?

>>11944
Hey, it could be worse. You COULD be a Dalek..

Unless of course you really are a Dalek.

My pathetic attempts at humor aside, what happened?

i just noticed the picture in the original post

this site...you were once good, tf2ch

>>11947
Deal with it, nerd.

In other news, for the first time in a long, long while, I feel completely comfortable with being in love with somebody. I know I'm a shitty person, but I'm so blown back by how much they care about me and forgive me and how deliriously happy I am when I think about them that I just... everything feels like it's going to be alright. And I have no reason to fret.

>>11948
whatever

at least i don't laugh at shit from reddit

bitch nigga

Oh my god.
Went to see Avengers movie. Twice.

Am now in lust with Loki. Why the fuck does that actor get to be so friggin' perfect? And his voice is made of sex.

...BF is unimpressed, but keeps joking about buying green contact lenses.

Goddamn it, Homestuck.

I never wanted to be a part of you!

I took JOY in hating your guts, and now, you've taken another. FUCK.

I'm staying far away from your fanbase, but you earn grudging respect from me. Hussie, you are a fucking genius when it comes to complex, layered story telling. I am in awe. (Fuck, it hurts to admit that.)

In other news, going back and rewatching ALL the ponies! Yes, THIS PLEASES ME.

>>11951
>homestuck

>>11953

>That feel when you realize you have been unknowingly abusive towards someone and nobody else recognizes those patterns but you.

So I went on a TF2 hiatus until one of my friends forced me to play. And now with a few lucky, coincidental events, I've found a kink for cuban-heeled boots and a particular interest in sniper rifles.

Also: Happy about getting a hang of Dwarf Fortress. So much Fun.

Good news all around, hoo-rah!

>>11927

I wonder if that's what it is. I don't honestly know my dad well, either he's at work or he's yelling at me so much I don't want to spend any time with him. And I regret it. I wish I was close to my parents, but they don't approve of anything I do and I get really frustrated. I hope everything works out with you and your stepdad.

>>11957
It didn't. I had moved out and we haven't talked to each other at all since.

My grandmother has trouble with using her computer, so she gets me to visit and do some stuff for her.
Today she asked me to delete the history on her firefox because it was riddled with sites that were 'not very nice' from when my brother visited one day.
I take a look through and find a fuckload of pages of porn featuring animals and little kids. WHAT. THE. ACTUAL. FUCK.
It's bad enough that he was watching porn ON MY GRANDMOTHER'S COMPUTER but seriously? SERIOUSLY?
I can't put into words how fucking DISTURBED I am. Also I have two dogs at home that he's home alone with all say every day while my mom and my dad and me are all at work.
I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT THIS. WHERE IS THE BRAIN BLEACH?
Something tells me that when I move out in September, I'm never coming back. Those are the two sexual things that I find absolutely disgusting. Weird kinks are one thing, but this is just... eugh. I can't puke enough times for how disgusted I am.

>>11961
Welcome to my world, Stubs. Sometimes you just don't know someone until you find their internet search history...

I'm almost tempted to advise you to tell your parents, for the safety of your dogs, but that would open a whole huge can of worms...

>>11963
My mom knows. My grandmother told her. She just hasn't done anything about it, and unless someone does talk to him and tell him that he shouldn't do that, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, he's probably going to do it again. We just got a new desktop for home and something tells me that history on it's clogged up with this shit too. I'm going to look tomorrow and if I find any more, I'm going to show it to my mom and tell her to talk to him about it.
Knowing my luck, she'll accuse me of it, despite the fact that I haven't used the desktop at all, except to play AoE II after work a couple of times.

That feeling when you realize how disgusting of a human being you are and hate yourself for it.

So the boyfriend and I talked to a lady about adopting her puppy that she couldn't take with her to Chicago. She was really nice and talked about how much she'd love for us to have the dog, and that she'd drop her off on Friday.

Never called, never showed, wouldn't answer her phone. If she changed her mind, it would have been fine, but jesus, would it hurt to let me know before I took the time to puppy-proof my room? I'm glad I already had the supplies or else I would have been out the money for puppy chow.

Okay, so since I'm just a contract worker, we sometimes get days off when the coupon backlog is low, because otherwise the full-time people don't have enough coupons to scan.
Now, I'm thrilled to have two days off, because I want to do shit with my acapella projects.
Friend at work says, "Oh yeah, she's okay with having it off, because she doesn't have bills to pay, LOL."
Bitch, I'm going to a school that costs $14k, and I've only got $4k saved up, after not spending a single penny for three solid months. That's counting the $1.5k I had saved up from my last job. Yes, I don't pay rent, or for food, because my parents rock, but I'm only here for another three months, and I didn't even make a full $3k in the last chunk. I like having a day off, because, unlike you, I need a job that mentally stimulates me. Sometimes, scanning coupons for 8 hours makes me squirrelly, and I want to leave. It doesn't mean I'm dancing around my house, chanting, "YAY! I'M ESSENTIALLY EIGHTY DOLLARS POORER!" (not counting deductions).

Just...fuck off. I don't pay bills, but I do need the money. Don't act like I'm here for the fun of it. Coupons are NOT that fun.
I mean I did get one that was for a free banana yesterday- just one free banana, no specific brand- and that amused me, along with the time I got over 2000 coupons for Vienna Sausage in one order, but still.

I also feel bad, because when she says shit like that, I just sit there and look at her, like, "You have about three teeth in your head, cashed in your RRSP to go to Cuba, with the reasoning that, because your husband had them, you didn't need one, insisted that a metaphor and an oxymoron were the same thing, and plan to retire in six years, at the age of fifty-five, with nothing in the way of pension except CPP, and buy obviously hot (as in stolen) items from Hong Kong and don't even realize it. You are the absolute essence of everything I never want to be."

I feel bad that I have sort of a snob complex, but at the same time, part of me feels it's a valid one to have. I'd feel worse if she wasn't such a bitch, too.

I am so sick of being friend-zoned by every single girl I have ever known. It's just so frustrating and disappointing.

>>11981

>>11983
Because sex is all men are interested in, right? They're not capable of wanting to feel an intimate connection with somebody or wanting to find someone they can entrust with their feelings so they don't have to keep it all bottled up until they explode and self-immolate, right?
Because when a guy wants a relationship and is disappointed he can't find one, he's just a chauvinist pig thinking with his dick?

>>11985
no,but when someone uses the term "friendzoned" seriously they're most likely an entitled douchebag.
Hell, /I/ could have done this but I don't because I'm not entitled to jack shit.

>>11983
It has nothing to do with sex. I don't give a crap about sex. If I wanted sex, well there are easier ways to get that. I just want someone to love me. But no! No one ever has. I try to get into a relationship, and we inevitably wind up as just friends. It has nothing to do with entitlement, but with loneliness.

>>11988
ah, my mistake then, I apologize.

>>11988
You're not lonely. You have friends. That's something to appreciate, isn't it? Sure, these girls are interested in a romantic relationship with you, but they still want to be around you, and spend time with you. And guess what? When they inevitably fall in love with an asshole, you're the one who gets to be there to comfort them, and be with them on a far more intimate level than any simple boyfriend could be.

>>11989
It's alright.
>>11990
Yeah, but it's still frustrating.

>>11986
i know right? whats with all these entitled docuhebags wanting to not be alone for the rest of their lives?

It's easier to blame the woman than it is to do some self evaluation. Perhaps it's your severe personality flaws that's preventing you from forming a meaningful relationship.

>>11993
or maybe there's nothing wrong with the guy, but the chemistry on the other person's end doesn't quite fit. And there's nothing wrong with that, though it sucks.
Also, orientations may not fit at times!
>>11992
difference is if you think someone "owes" you a relationship, then you are an entitled douchebag. wanting a relationship in general isn't.

>>11993
Who said anything about blaming the woman? The only constant factor is myself, so I know I am either doing something wrong or as
>>11994
said, I am just not meeting the right person.

I never intended for this to become an argument, just for it to be a simple expression of my disappointment.

Why do some guys smell so good? It's driving me crazy. I'm sitting next to one of my best friends and he smells amazing. I just want to kiss him senseless.

>>11997
...wait you mean those deoderant ads aren't full of shit?

brb buying all the rexona

>>11972
Anon, no. You are beautiful.

Events with astronomical odds of occurring are occurring out there, like oxygen turning into gold. Millions upon millions of cells compete to create life, for generation after generation until, finally, your mother loves a man, and against unfathomable odds you are born. To distill so specific a form, from all that chaos. It's like turning air into gold. A miracle.

Every time you so much as speak to another person you are impacting a giant equation we call the universe by affecting that precise moment in their life. What you say might hurt them or offend them, but if they let that get them down that is nothing you can help in retrospect. The best thing to do is look forward. No matter what anyone does or says they can easily become a positive number in the grand equation by trying. It's never too late.

You're not a disgusting person. Hitler was a disgusting person. Until you kill at least one person, just chin up. Do your best. It's all the universe could ask of you.

(This is my personal justification for being a dick all the time and somehow I manage to get people to love me for it-- there's hope for you.)

--

...Uuh, my feels are... I'm incredibly pressured by my finals. I'm wondering, naturally, if I have what it takes to be an artist. I'm being hit hard with the reality that I chose a difficult, time-intensive, and creativity-dependant field and yet I know I'm much less cut out for anything else.

I'm also becoming increasingly embarrassed when people ask me about my schooling because a lot of people don't think there's a career in art (pfft) and game art just seems to sound like bullshit to a lot of (mostly older) people. I've also gotten ridiculed twice in a couple months for thinking a female has any place in the video-game industry... I know all this stuff is stupid, wrong, and pretty fucked up, but it's hard to smile and shrug it off when I reeeeally want to rail into people who think these ways.

Anywho my project is due in like a month and there's no way I'm going to be able to model an entire map by myself by then, haha... Luckily my process sketchbook is bursting with material, and the college I'm transferring to only requires I pass and not get a merit or distinction. (I would like a better grade than "pass" though!) I guess I can write a few pages on how I learned why I couldn't manage to make a whole map solo in the space of a couple months!

I get really discouraged coming to the chan anymore because I want to post my work and get polite crits, but this isn't 2008-2009 anymore and I just see a lot of dickery being tossed around.

Picture related, it's something I wanted to get critted.

Hopefully, though, I get this job for the summer and I can take the time to look for another full time job.

After lots of IRL drama, I find myself wandering back here looking for old friends, or at least old draw buddies. It's very weird not having a community or niche to just casually go back into.
I've been trying to draw again and have been hoping to find a buddy, mentor, or hell anybody to just look at what I have and critique it. I haven't drawn in so long and I'm trying to get back into it, I really miss making things.

tl;dr so ronery ;;